I am going to be honest about my life right now and just say I have been so extemely stressed out this week... I am embarrassed to admit that I am not prepared for this econmy crisis that the US is going through.... Life as I know it is and always will be hard at times and through it I have always tried my hardest to be positive... This week I have struggled quit alot with the day to day trials... My job has slowed way down the last few weeks and so you know what that means-my hours and my pay checks have also cut into about half-can't pay for Jiselle to go to Day Care... So what do I do about this.... That's the question I have been asking myself all week long... I think I have found the answer to that problem through alot of prayer (Start my own Day Care) but I have put it off because when I first thought about it I didn't really have any problems or concerns-change is hard and boy is their alot to do to get started.... I told Owen if I do this I want to get licensed.... It is funny because I had this come to me awhile ago and just said something to Owen about it being something I could do again... I mean I was after all a Day Care Provider for the first 6 years we were married - But now that I am not making the money I need and I have problems and concens it's something I need to do... If I would have listened then maybe we wouldn't be struggling as much... Maybe I would have started already.... But life is full of maybe-s and what if-s.... I just want to say that Heavenly Father knows us and he is aware of our needs even before we are... If we only listen to that still small voice and do what we are told even if it's hard or scary our lifes will be blessed.... I know that I just want to do what's best for my family they are my life and I would do anything for them.... I won't let this CRAZY world get in my way of provideing for my family.... I won't give up EVER.... I know that I am my worst critic.... I can make my self feel as if I am the worst person ever and that if only I would have done this or if only I would have done that.... But I also know that I am only human and I do make alot of mistakes.... I know that all I can do is the BEST I can.... Heavenly Father wouldn't want me to fill this way about my self he only wants me to look to Him and follow the promptings I am given.... Move on and go forward with the knowledge that I have done my best and the Lord will pick up where I fell short and he will carry me when I feel as if I can no longer go.... I am forever GREATFUL of His LOVE.... I know with His help we will get through these hard times and look back to all our trials and say we got through it-We Always Do-
Owen and Mitchell went to the Scout house at 5:00 on Friday night for some yummy dinner and fun games till 10:00 then it was time to be a man and campout in their tents... To me this would be fine in Arizona but Utah in January are you kidding me???? It was maybe 20 degrees outside and it had rained all day and then all night and the fog was so bad you couldn't even see... Owen came home on Saturday after eating a yummy breakfast and said he was frozen all night... I asked him about his sleeping bag and said he had put it under them and he had slept with two blankets over him... He woke up the first time and put on his extra pair of socks, then woke up to put on his jacket, then woke up to put on his gloves, and then he woke up all night long because he was freezing!!!!! Owen said that was the coldest he has ever been in his life... Mitchell on the other hand woke up in the morning and turned to Owen and said Dad my sleeping bag was so warm... -Owen told him to be quiet-Mitchell had a good night sleep and was ready for the day : ) Needless to say Owen took a nap and later felt better... So I call it the MAN scout campout because I am so glad to be the WOMAN-MOM and stay in my warm house and sleep in my warm bed... Sorry boys but sometimes I think you are CRAZY... All in all they had a really good time and they will have lots of fun memories... Owen is soooo looking forward to the winter campout where they campout in the snow.... I am sure Owen will sleep in his sleeping bag this time.... All I can say is HAVE FUN BOYS!!!!
