Running on empty

It goes like this... Kids, Owen, Work, homework, school, house, church... How does that look to you? Do you see taking care of myself anywhere? Nope me either... I started working at my job about 5 1/2 months ago and for the last 5 months I have just been really sick back and for to the Doctor on antibiotic after antibiotic, pain pills, cough medication with codeine so I can sleep... Now I am on a new antibiotic for the next month to see if that will work and more testing to see what else is going on... I threw school into the mix and WOW talk about running on empty... I feel as if I have nothing left!!! To this day am still worried about everyone else and everything else except myself... Things have come to the point where I have to start making changes that will help me... I have a lot of praying to do to figure things out. I know that if I leave things to the Lord he will put me in the right place... Do you see what else is wrong with the order of my life? Yes church is last on the list... Now with that, how could things possibly get better for me? When I started my job I had every other Sunday off then it went to every forth Sunday and now it's every sixth Sunday... I feel as if I have lost myself in the mist of everyday life... My soul is wanting so badly to be nourished, but nothing... Why? Because I NEVER go to church... This part of my life is not helping... I know better and I know without the Lord in my life I can't get to where I need to be... It's not just me, but my kids also... I can feel the change in my home since Owen and I have been gone on Sundays... It has become a day just like any other day and that is NOT what I want... I feel I am missing out on the most important part of life and that is the Gospel... I need to be strengthened each week to help me get through the everyday challenges that just seem to just appear... I am putting myself into the Lords hands tonight to help me make the decisions I need to... That's not the hard part for me because I do this all the time... It's change that's hard for me... Fear of the unknown... I need not fear if I am being lead by the Lord... He is the only one that truly knows me and my every need... I can't tell you how thankful I am to have a relationship with the Lord... To know that he really knows me and loves me... I have a lot of changes to make in my life before my tank will begin to fill, but that's the best part of life here on earth... We have the chance to change and better ourselves... The Lord is always waiting to hear from us we just have to ask... Take it from me you are important so take care of yourself... Don't let your tank run on empty...

Prince and Princess 2011

Mitchell and Kelcie were voted Prince and Princess 2011 for the Middle School on Friday. I took these picture before the dance and Kelcie's Mom went and took pictures at the dance so I need to get a copy of those :) Mitchell was taught how to dance by Kelcie's older brothers that are in high school before they went to the dance. They got to walk the red carpet and dance to The Taylor Swift song Love Story in front of the whole school :) CONGRATS to you guys!!! Mitchell I think you are growing up to be a very handsome young man... I love you!!!

Taking The Challenge

So I just went back and started college for the first time in 14 years... Not sure I was ready for the first night I went... I had to laugh because my instructor said to take out the syllabus that we were supposed to print off the blackboard so we could go over it??? What??? What the heck is a syllabus??? What the heck is the blackboard??? Boy was I in for a treat :) I decided I was from the stone age and needed to get my butt in gear and figure out what the heck I needed to be doing. WOW RIGHT... I really enjoy my social work classes and think I'm really going to LOVE this profession!!! I know the world is in need of people who want to help others and put themselves out in the public... Our house has changed a lot with me going back to school and working... Poor Mitchell has to do a lot for his young age while I am gone for the two nights of school... Trying to do homework with kids is another story... We took from Owens unemployment for that whole year to work our butts off and get where we really want to be in this life... We also learned that it really doesn't matter how big your house is or what kind of car you drive to be a successful person at all... It's doing what you love and loving what you do... Owen is the happiest person in the world being a chef and I will be the happiest person in the world being a social worker and helping others in my community... We may never be rich with money but we will be rich with HAPPINESS... I really learned what matters in life throughout the year... We had quit a while to ponder the things of importance to us as individuals and as a family... We may have a tough few years ahead of us right now but it will sure be worth it at the end of the long road... I know that I have lots to learn in this life and boy am I ever ready for the challenge... So take it from me that it's NEVER to late to change the person you are into the person YOU WANT TO BE... It's NEVER to late to get your college education and have that profession you have always wanted... If you are in question about what you want to be when you grow up just take the leap and go for it... It will be the BEST DECISION you HAVE EVER MADE!!! He NEVER said it wold be EASY he said it WOULD BE WORTH IT!!!

2010 Family Photos 11/18/2010

This year I made sure to get our family pictures done... The kids have all grown up so much and when I look at them I think where did the years go??? I love my family so much and they are all so beautiful with such cute smiles... I am so thankful that I was so blessed to be a mom... What a blessing it is to be able to raise such wonderful children and to go through all the ups and downs together as a family... I tell my kids no empty chairs... That means I want them all to live their lives so we can be together forever in the eternities and have no empty chairs... What a BEAUTIFUL family we have... I Love Them All ...